My premium rate numbers addiction

I don"t know how to start that story... I have never shared facts from my personal life, especially information of this kind with anybody. Now I have been told that doing that on greater scale, over the internet all of a sudden - making it available for every single person in the world, potentially - is supposed to help me somehow with that. this is the opinion of my doctor, the one that helps me. I really don"t know how to react to all that anymore, this is something unusual, really. I have never been addicted to something. This is the first time ever with those premium rate numbers.?? I just feel I have to do that. when any of the channels emits some kind of information about some competition where you need to text a message with for example your name or other info, I just feel as if I lost some opportunity when I am not there, you know what I mean? I just have to be there and send that, I cannot stay away from such things. this is the addiction and my weakness connected with premium rate numbers. They have a loyal client in me, they can count on my whichever country I am currently in. personally, I have never tried to look at it from the other side. From the side of the person responsible for establishing some of the premium rate numbers. Maybe that would help me get a better image of it somehow?